settle down, unnatural normal

Arr, the burden of being single, kinda like having leprosy yet no one mentions it. But worse is the feeling like I'm obligated to do something about it. It really doesn't work like that and I think most people know this, they just pick the quickest, easiest option.

I have no desire to be single but I refuse to compromise my beliefs which are very important to me. There is a certain way certain things have to happen and that is never more true than falling in love and spending the rest of your life with the one you love.

Oh, of course, you think I'm being "unrealistic". Well, my parents were so-called "realistic" and got together because of circumstance and the overwhelming desire to be "normal" and fit in. They haven't had the best marriage and nor will they and they didn't make brilliant parents either. Not that I didn't have everything I needed but I had little or no interaction with my parents growing up. Giving into social paranoia and peer pressure is clearly not the answer. Why make yourself miserable, it's plain stupid. And at the end of the day, I'd rather be miserable and alone than miserable with someone else I really can't stand... you just tolerate... that's my parents' marriage in one word: tolerate. Sums up this day and age we live in really... or so it seems.

So what do I mean by "the way it happens" you ask? Well, I think that is very subjective and down to you the individual but basically, it needs to not feel artificial and forced. You know... natural.

So dating agencies...
Christ, you may as well stick us all in the matrix and be done with it. I mean seriously what is the point to life if you're gonna let machines and artificial means to dictate the important events in your life. I'm sorry if you have used it and found it great, but for me, it goes profoundly against my beliefs. It feels wrong. And now I think about it... why is it perfectly "normal" and socially acceptable to use dating agency's to match you with the person you are going to spend the rest of your life with using companies with computers, but it's not normal for a human male to wear a skirt even though his genitals are on the outside of his body therefore designed to be kept cool. Science! But seriously, society gets quite a lot of things wrong when you analyse it.
I mean, I'd use a dating site for the experience, that's fine, just for funsies, but everyone else would be taking it seriously so it wouldn't be fair on them if I turned up with no intention of actually looking for someone.

But of course, society is a game of numbers and people have funny ways of making you feel like shit for sticking out. Fuck them, frankly. but if you think I'm being fussy, yes I think that is a fair comment, but I know my love, I know my compatibility, and if I end up living the rest of my life being single I don't see why that has to guarantee, a life of misery (yes that was a triple rhythm, marvellous) It's just a social construct, and the idea that is planted in your head that you have to be partnered up. Having a mediocre marriage benefits no one especially your children. Which I would like to have, but ONLY in the right, healthy, balanced relationship which in turn will create a healthy environment for them to grow up in.



to be continued...