Sunday, 7 December 2014

One more thing social media

Also. I've managed to break my social media habit. I'm doing so well I forgot about it, ha.
I'm so happy to break that although I do still use google+. But it only takes 5 mins to look at where the others could take hours. Google+ is more like a news feed so it's much healthier for me. I don't know why it's not as popular as the others. But ah well. So pleased with myself. It has taken about a month but haven't touched twitter, Facebook, Instagram, Tumblr or Pinterest for a week except to advertise a kickstarter. NO MORE BEING A FOLLOWER. Being a follower and JUST a follower sucks. It really leads to loneliness and such procrastinating. Glad to be rid of that BS. It is also a reminder that loneliness doesn't come from being alone, it comes from feeling surrounded and yet ignored.
There were some good moments and I did talk to some youtubers a little.
Next I need to work on regular sleeping patterns and getting back into yoga and/or going to the gym. How expensive is the gym though , Gees. In olden times you'd get exercise from work, which you got paid for. Now you pay to do work at the gym. Mad bloody world, lol

Getting organised, and another coincidence

My first positive post, I think lol.

I'm trying for the life of me to remember where I got this awesome app from but I think I just googled for organiser app and it took me to google play. It's pretty kool: Isotimer

I actually think I could design one myself now but this has given me a great basis of what one should have. I had looked at others before but none of them seemed to click. This one you can set tasks for today or another day. You can set long term goals or projects. It has a calender that syncs with google calendar, you can set up appointments. Plus it has an in built journal and a notes section. There's also a review section and a big picture where you can see a time span on a calander for each project. kool stuff. so yay, saves me from having to buy a purple leather origaniser which for some reason seemed to cost at least like £50 for some stupid reason.
I also downloaded a bunch of apps called timesheet so you can accurately assign your time in the day with alarms and timers and stuff so you're really on the clock. It seems extreme but I really need this kind of thing as I'm distracted to easily when I'm at home. AND I've downloaded one called HabitRPG, which is about tracking good and bad habits and scoring yourself. So good habits give you a point and bad habit takes a point away. I'll have a closer look next week.

But what amazed me was yesterday watching Nixe Pixels self help video. I mean it was if it was tailored for me and my neurotic mind. It was so amazing as it made me feel like I'm not tottaly alone. And man it was so accurate, well, I dunno about the mad scientist brain, but I'm certainly neurotic and overthink everything. She even asked her viewers to leave 3 main goals that you want to achieve at the moment so I put down my 3 which are:
  1. Make a Game
  2. Start my youtube channel
  3. Finally go to one of the meetups from meetup.com
Obviously I'm still very anxious about the third one, but I just gotta power through the first few meetups and just keep my shit together until I start to feel like people may actually be OK with me. Alcohol will help, me thinks.

So yer, good news, I've already started to use the isotimer app and I got a fair bit of sh*t done over the weekend. Still a long way to go but I'm STILL with the parents at the moment. Yer, no word from the solicitars. huuuuuu. But what can you do. SO much BS paperwork, and everything takes soooo long to move into a flat.... The Flat of Solitude

Oh and another great piece of advice Nixie gave was not worrying about the Status Quo, no, not the band, although they're pretty bad, but you know.. what "they" think, as it is unproductive and is one of the main sources of my unhappiness I think. Even going on to say about worrying not having a girlfriend and stuff. I do my best not to think about that but it's so hard cos everyone my age seems to be in a relationship and then you get the online dating adverts on TV and on youtube as well. It can be very upsetting at times and I really wish society would stop doing it.
I won't settle for anyone other than the person I'm supposed to be with and I know that person when I see/meet them

Oh yer shoot, I forgot I've recorded myself playing Dragon Age Origins, just Mic, no camera. It is pretty wierd as I'm not used to it, but it's not that bad really, I think I could defiantly see myself getting better at this with time. I need a decent camera and don't know how much I should spend, plus I want to buy some make-up just for my skin, cos I'm pretty insecure, my skin is really blotchy and red. Men in studios where make-up so don't see the difference.

Anywho's that's about it, all round pretty good. The only thing else I can think to mention is I really want to make youtube videos to help anyone that might be in my position and try and give people hope, cos if I can sort myself out, anyone can... well... probably not anyone, but most people.

OK, so I think I'm gonna watch some Tabletop before bed time. Actually cos of the time I think I'll watch more of Felicia's RPG playthrough

Bye